I have taken some time to reflect.
On what my life is now. How I handle freedom without being careless. How I protect myself without caging my heart away forever. How I find Balance.
I mentioned a post or two ago that I was planing a trip, a trip I had been planning for years. 5 years to be exact.
Well, I took that trip. It was in Iceland that I finally found my center. Sneaking away for mere moments from my travel companion I sat on the shoreline of a glacial lake alone. The water a pristine reflection of the sky.
What brought me total clarity as I took in the crisp Arctic air. The realization that all those days I dreamed about this place, Imagined this moment. When it was all I wanted. The moments when I thought "if I ever get to go...". Every play of the Icelandic tourism DVD, even though my husband told me it was stupid. Those moments were not for nothing.
You see Iceland embodied every dream I had. It was the last one standing; the last thing I held on to. It was the only thing I thought about some days before I fell asleep from exhaustion after I ran out of tears.
It was the only place I ever felt that I NEEDED to go.
And right there at that moment it was real. Not only was it real so was everything in the last year. I sacrificed everything I had ever known for something that was better and exactly then, sitting on the pebbles at the shore of this amazing place I realized that moving past all of this hurt is going to bring me extraordinary things.
Iceland is just the beginning.